You have something special till it falls apart

I feel like sometimes i am a shadow in my big ego and it drives me nuts i love to hate what i have made of myself. Sometimes i wish it was like the same when we were in kinder and i would play everyday and not care about much that was going on.i want to tell someone i love them and take it back the next day what's wrong with me? i know my friends always say oh yall are cute the moment he breaks my hear t his an ass and when i am with him again they get mad and then they accept and then i complain of why i wasted my time and they allowed me to do that. Sorry guys i will try to stop doing that. i am in love with facts and not so much whats in my face someone who makes me laugh happy and i think about non-stop about i believe i am in love.